The Mythical White Goddess Part IV
The Destruction of the White Beauty
She is often referred to as the statuesque blonde in the office. Another reference of a so called White Goddess. I just call her a Barbie Doll. It’s more fitting. To me, statuesque refers to someone who symbolizes greatness, such as the statues that lie tribute to the likes of Harriet Tubman or Phillis Wheatley, and all the strong African American women who stood against the oppression and fought so valiantly for our freedom. This woman is statuesque to them because she has the features of a White Goddess, the perpetuated myth of society’s beauty. She has long blonde hair that comes from a bottle. Large breasts that have been augmented. Full lips that have been enhanced through outlines. She is all made up and as fake as a doll. She is no Goddess, nor statuesque. But this societal myth remains and because as such, she stands in prominence, advancing through the world on her white beauty. What better representation for their firm, than the so called ultimate female. Their White Goddess.
My patience with her was always slim and this particular morning was no different. I had already had enough of her fictitiously generated femininity. The tossing of her hair, the provocative clothing, and her weak attempts at authority all made my blood pressure boil. Purely cringe worthy to witness these acts. I was tired of our roles within the company. We were leveled as equals, but I was clearly looked upon as her subordinate, which was obviously because of my skin color. I could do far more than her but was treated as incapable. During meetings with the staff, her authority clearly diminished in my presence. She was visually overwhelmed by the strength of a powerful black woman, as I would dictate the direction and terms of the conference as she would remain docile. Yet even with all of this she was considered to be the true leader.
I had anger and wanted my deserving place, so I entered her office. The confrontation was short as I walked in, she stood up and walked towards me with a brash confidence. The nerve, I couldn’t believe the egotistical arrogance of a White Goddess, for which she has no right. This made me even angrier. When we pulled face to face, I kept walking forward. I saw the evocation of fear on her face as she stepped back. Her arrogance was stripped down to submission. I pushed on and smiled while continuing my rant with the ferocity of a mad black woman. She had never before bared witness to the strength, the power, the glory, and real beauty of a black woman. With her back against the wall I pressed in a final time. The white woman offered no defense. I realized with this my career in Public Relations would likely be over and that I would be terminated, but nonetheless I did not care as I felt victorious at seeing the demise and collapse of this White Goddess, displaying her to all as inferior. While she did not say it, her physical posture was a damning admission of who the authoritative figure in the office should have been.
This was a career setback for me as I moved on with great difficulty. It took me several years to find work. I was branded a racist by some in the industry for my treatment of the white woman, when in fact it was her who was racist, believing to be the superior woman to all. Without question she perfectly suited the ideal of the perpetuated myth of the White Goddess, and has been the inspiration for my series of blogs. I was finally able to come to terms with my former employer as they realized the error of their ways. It wasn’t about the money. Not at all. It was about getting them to admit that they failed to recognize the superiority of the black woman.
For me, demolishing the White Goddess, and that’s what it was, felt liberating. The power of freedom had never been worn so easily by me until that moment. She may be the forbidden fruit, unable to be touched for her flaws, but I have no regrets for humiliating the white woman. Absolutely none. If she had any kind of strength or backbone this would not have been possible. I wish for all my sisters to be able to one day feel the same empowering freedom I have felt. The liberation of oneself is invigorating. I propose to all black women to find this place. I don’t recommend losing your jobs, as this can be a dangerous form of survival. So proceed with caution, but understand that now is the best time for us to stake a claim on the throne that is rightfully ours and conquer those on the pedestal who are truly inferior and weak. I sincerely propose we stand together in unity to face the enemy. We are strong black women, too powerful to be held down any longer. Let’s together watch the fall of a Dynasty and the Destruction of the White Goddess, as she lies in the ruins of her worth.